its been awhile since i wrote stuff n here. kinda busy. and now i just wanna let some things out. its been 3 night he hasnt been calling me at night for a gdnite wish since after he went back to ipoh again to continue his work there. im not used to it since i couldn talk to him at night, thou i can sleep thru the night. it feels like something is missing. the worse part of all, his frens are living in the same room as him so he cant talk on the phone. not sure how long is he gonna be there also. im not sure how long i must wait. n im not sure whether his leg ok bo ..sigh. so many questions, yet to be answered. hurting somewhere inside, not sure whats the cause ..

been goin out wit jojo for the pass few days n week before. It was fun xD. For the first time in a while since i went out wit her. I hope we can do this again hahahah ..and also wit other ppl also. fun fun fun xD. funny n crazy at the same time. lol. just that SOMEBODY was so busy wit his phone ..HAIS. - -

Today was probably the worse day ever. Im upset for me bestie, and im upset tht me n my love argued. Well sort of argue. Sigh. why things have to go by so badly. Love, something that can make you happy the most, want the most, can also hurt you the most. Something you need to make you strong, but also can make you the weakest when things go wrong. It complicated, it can make you smile widely without you noticing but it can also make tears flow with no control.

On the 12 of Feb 2011, in the evening, my beloved came to pick me up around 5 (to go to yuric's hse party) i had a rely bad experienced wit him like 3 days continuously before the date of 12. So my mood wasn tht good, besides sadness, i was scared as well and other then that frustrated cause he nvr talked to me, while we were in the car. He was also busy looking at the gps in his fon to find his way to yuric's hse. Anyways, after when we reached i called jojo, and unfortunately, she stil haven reach yet so ya ..wanted to soooo kill her xD ..

We went into the hse and greet yuric's dad. After that we went upstairs, instead of goin into yuric's room (cause his frens were wit him), we hang around at the balcony next to his room. I tried to talk to him and control myself from crying. It was kinda hard to talk cause he didn rely say tht much n dun rely tel me anything ..so ya ..i thought it was goin to be a bad day ..thts wad i thought at first.

Few mins later, Jo reached n i pass her the gift from thai ..oh i pass yuric his gift when we went into his hse as well. Then we sat on the sofa n watch tv. Not long later, we gamble ..heh, nvr use my money :X ..but i gain n lose for him equally. We had fun, n im glad tht he laughed n smile. It made me relief. Then, we went down for dinner wit bunch n bunch of ppl. While eating while chatting wit firb whereas jo was chatting wit kim.

After when we were done, everyone got into the room and then after tht i followed since he was bz talking wit jo's fren. The rest were bz playing ps3 (naruto) ..screaming n shouting ..wow lols ..i wonder whther the ppl outside of the room cud hear them. We chat, played games, receive red packets, laugh alot and goin up n down the stairs lols. As we were about to leave, he kept asking me to go to the trunk n get sumthing. He say it was for me. I hesitated n asked him to giv it to me but he doesn wan to ..he say it was better if i look n take it for myself ..im like wad?? ..without any further "arguement" i went to the back n open the trunk ..i was like OMG, bear bears :'). i was happy n at the same time soo ..omg, speechless ..i nvr gotten tht kind of present before. As i was about to take it out, peihan n gina passed by, n i waved gdbye to them.

Wad he game me? ..saw the pic above? ..thts wad he got me, for valentine. Although i nvr celebrated valentines day wit him, im stil happy. This was sumthing to replace for us not be able to go out on the valentines day. Turns out, tht day wasn so bad after all, Thks to him. Lots of love.

Its already the 22nd of nov 2010. I've been studying in UCSI for almost a year. But stil, i cant get use to my frens thr. Mostly of them will be speaking chinese n im the oni one speaking in eng ..Worse of all, i wont noe wad are they talking bout cause, the things they noe ..i dun ..this upsets me alot cause i feel left out sumtimes. I dun mind if they wanna hang out, go to a shopping mall amongs themselves without me cause, i cant get along wit them ..but at least tel me so n NOT talk bout it in front of me ..IT hurts me alot tht way, SUMTIMES i DO feel tht, I chose the wrong college to study in, SUMTIMES i DO regret my actions, in being in this college ..ppl im wit now, hardly talk to me cause i dun converse the same language with them AND i duno wad are they talking bout ..as in wad topic they are talking bout, im not sure bout ..i duno bout ..this is because im not expose to the outside world, i dun noe much about anything outside ..i feel so ashame of myself. They noe more n i dun or worse, they noe natural and simple things n i dun EVEN noe about any of those. I did try my best to listen to wad they are saying, wad they are talking bout, and also tolerate on teh situation tht they just talk among themselves n not a single moment i was included in the conversation. Im thankful though tht, one of my new frens, did include me in, sum how or rather in a situation. But who noes, when i turn my back around, she's influenced by them, talking bout me (probably) behind my back ..then, i wasn even cared ..SUMTIMES, i do feel like n think tht i shud dissapear in front of their faces n let them have their moment. If thts wad they wan ..since im ignored. This all started when i started this 2nd sem ..n now it almost end. Next sem is coming up, im also not sure whether they wan me tgt in the same class wit them or not ..sigh ..wad a life ..i guess part of it can be my fault ...

sigh, college started ..which means, gotta get studying started soon =/ ..
2nd day of college n dun rely feel a lil delight of it .
now in college ..waiting for another sub which is in like wad ...3 hs + ..- -
wad am i gonna do in the mean time??? ...bored bored bored ..
in the library rite now ...goin throu facebook ...n blogging ..n twittering lols .
nth much to write ..nth rely happened ..besides tht i had a rely bad day ytd ..
1st of sept, 1st day of class ...n first day of sumthing else tht came without expecting ..
how wonderful rite -____- !! ...first time eva happen to me without preparing ..
well, except for the first time first day i have it when i was standard 5 ...o.o .
anyways, gonna stop here ..anything then i'll blog it later on ..
tata~~ cheerssss

first off, my mom thought of sending me to a chinese doc to treat my jaw ..but i didn wan to cause ..its all ..NEEDLES ...i dun wan ..LOLs . Then she decided to send me to normal doctors ..but i doubt the clinic wud help ..so my mom decide to just buy chinese medicine for me to drink ..see will recover or not ...
well, went to carefour wit mom first b4 buying the med ...walk around n buy sum stuff ..cause my mom said it was cheap ..
then, went to subang parade, walked around ..bought 2 t-shirts from urban tee for my bro ..
then, went back to sea park, my mom wan to buy me a chinese medicine ..
went back home to drop the stuff off first cause ti was drizzling already ...
then went to sunway, cause my mom wanted to go jusco n buy her mop n others ..then my bro called n he say he wanted to go back home (ps: he was in his fren's hse)
after tht, went to buy sum drinks cause thirsty :P ..we didn do much ..after when we left sunway, we straight away went to fetch my bro ..
on the way back my bro wanted to get sumthing from digital mall ..since he left it in his fren's hse .
i didn folo ..i stayed at home ..showered, watch tv, on fb, n msn ..n blablabla ..now im blogging ..
lols ..wad a day - - ..:P ..anyways, not rely in a good mood ...AGAIN ..cause of SUMBODY ...
ciaos, blog another day ...><